Closer to the end

Yes, we are getting closer to the end of this fascinating year! Yes, I’m being sarcastic! 

I’m wondering though about all the kinds of plans that are getting laid out on journals, diaries or planners for next year. 

What about the long list of unfinished goals, plans or resolutions from early this year that are either getting crossed off for good or are maybe getting a second or third or fourth attempt this time around? 

I know I still have goals that have been collecting dust for a few years already. Maybe it’s time to dust them off. Maybe. . . 

Of course there has been procrastination, avoidance, excuses and laziness! What else could we add to the list? I don’t know, but it’s not good for sure. 

I wish that wasn’t the case but I have no other one to blame but me. 

In my defense, I realized a while back that I can’t be every single circus performer and the circus director all at the same time, I have to do one at a time. 

I work full time, I’m a mom to the kid and the 4 dogs, I’m a home owner, and I’m also supposed to be selfish and take bubble baths with a glass of wine while I read a book. 

I just laughed so loud! I never have time for a bubble bath!

You probably know this already, but we had our very own real-life series of unfortunate events for the past 7 years or so. 

My main concern was the kid, I needed him to be healthy but more importantly, I wanted him to be a happy kid. 

We went through a roller coaster of emotional stages, but we are good now but there was a price to pay in all this, mama became the caboose!

I’ve focused mostly on working full time and being a mom, everything else was placed on the back burner including myself.

I know I’m not the only mama that has become the caboose but at some point, the caboose gets so stuffed with everything that it implodes!

No, I haven’t imploded yet because then I’d have to clean the mess and I already have a mess to clean up. 

I’ve never been really the kind of person that wishes things were different, I just take it as is and keep going.

Neglecting myself unfortunately was one of the things that I do regret doing but at the same time, I wouldn’t be here pouring my heart out to you if that wasn’t the case.

So, the goals for next year. Do you have a list? I have a short one. Me and the house. 

The kid is in a much better spot now so I don’t have to focus on him that much anymore. I just need to make sure he walks the line at all times.

The dogs are not puppies anymore so I don’t have to worry about them that much either, and they’re starting to go through the whole night without waking me up.

The house needs me though, and I need myself as well. So, these are my goals for 2021. 

I am not adding anything else for next year. Me and the house are enough. If I add anything else, it will just sit there collecting dust.

It has happened before, so why even go there?

What are your plans for 2021? I know this year has been more than insane, but still. 

The end of 2020 is closer but the beginning of 2021 is around the corner. Any plans?


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